guestbook 8:57 p.m. i'm really upset about heath ledger's death. i'm not sure if it's because i think (thought?) he was really hot and going to be the next johnny depp or if it's because i've had such a hard time dealing the with the loss of so many of my students lately that i am using as an excuse to be sad and upset about death. i can't help it, i love the new britney spears song. 2008-01-23 8:55 p.m. i should be working on this drawing instead of playing on this internet. 2008-01-19 7:10 p.m. this is my list of things that are never ever ever on sale: milk deoderant magazines that's about all i can think of right now. if you can think of anything, please let me know. 2008-01-19 10:39 p.m. so i can't decide who to vote for. there were three people at jackson square station saying "vote for barak obama." i don't want to vote for him. i think i'm going to vote for john edwards. he's not great on gun control. that's really important to me. but god, hilary clinton is actually okay with the death penalty. and so is barak obama. and that bothers me. i can't vote for any of those people. what should i do? hilary clinton is very pro-choice and so is edwards. i just don't know what to do. john edwards is the best looking. so maybe i'll just be for him. last night i wanted to watch "the princess bride" while i felt asleep. after the movie was some soft core porn. i was so afraid mittens would come home while it was on and think i was watching it. but i wasn't, i was watching "the princess bride." man, johnny depp is such an awesome actor. he's got to finally get an oscar. even though i love brad pitt, johnny depp is the best actor around. he's so free and uninhibted and commits to the charactor. it's amazing. he's truely an artist. also, tim curry is hawt in "the rocky horror picture show." le boyfriend got le laid off. 2008-01-18 8:54 p.m. mittens told me last night that he would never call me in an emergency. he also would not call his brother, gloves. he said we don't answer our phones. that's mostly true of me. if i'm at the house, i don't usually answer the phone. i'm usually upstairs and my phone is usually downstairs. and lord knows i'm not walking my ass downstairs for mittens to tell me he just saw a cat in a window. so i've made a pledge to start bringing my bad with my phone upstairs at night. i like to leave it downstairs, by the door, so when i get ready to leave, it's there. but if it will make mittens happy, i will carry the phone upstairs. becasue i love him! here is my morning routine: 5:42: alarm goes off 5:51: alarm goes off again 6:00: alarm goes off again. i finally get out of the bed and stretch. 6:02: i go to the bathroom 6:03: brush teeth, moisturizer, stare in the mirror, acne cream, deodorant 6:08: get dressed, say goodbye to mittens 6:15: start water boiling for oatmeal and tea 6:18: get keys and lunch from fridge, start car 6:22: check water, put on make-up, check the weather 6:25: fix tea and oatmeal, put them in my bag 6:28: leave for train station i'm very serious about my routine. please let me know if you have further questions. 2008-01-15 8:28 p.m. i just adore mo rocca. 2008-01-14 8:15 p.m. i'm getting yelled at. this time it's because i recored a million episodes of world's stongest man. it's the only sport i watch and know all the players to. i'm out of date on it and need to catch up. 2008-01-14 6:19 a.m. SNOW. NO SCHOOL!!! 2008-01-14 3:47 p.m. raoul is going to the vet tomorrow. there was something wrong with his ear. he kept pushing it back and down. he seemed so sad. so mittens told me to take him to the vet. he seems better now, but it's been years since he had a check up. i don't usually take him because he's an indoor cat. so the carrier i have is too small for him. as you may know, raoul is a big boy. a 15lb big boy. the other carrier is fine for oscar, but i needed a new one for raoul. i went to the petsmart to look. my plan was this: park at the petsmart and look there for a carrier. walk over to the target and look for one there. then, if i decided to get one at either store, i would get the best price. i got to the petsmart and they had one for $40. i walked over to the target and found one i really like there for $60. then i remembered that i wanted one of those pet strollers. so i walked back over to the petsmart to see if they had one. i was worried they wouldn't and i would have to walk my ass back over to the target and buy the one i wanted. but at the petsmart, they had one on sale. it was normally $130, but i got it for $100. i took raoul out for a walk. he meowed, but i feel pretty sure he'll like it when he gets used to it. i wanted it so he and i and mittens can go for walks this summer. won't that be fun!? 2008-01-13 10:47 p.m. i don't like football because there are too many rules. 2008-01-12 9:15 p.m. fuck those assholes at ion tv. they've moved my tony danza to 10:00. what a bunch of assholes!!! 2008-01-08 8:00 p.m. mittens and i are both sick after eating turkey burgers last night. we've had stomach aches and diarhea all day long. and the worst stomach cramps. i was in so much pain. then i had to get up during dinner and run to the bathroom. he was waiting outside the door for his turn. i still managed to go to the gym. did i mention my car is broken again. i got home friday night and smelled coolant and rubber. i always check the car on saturdays. when i got out there, there was a puddle of coolant on the groud. grrr. i tried to look under to see if i could find the hose i'm pretty sure it was from, i couldn't find it. it wasn't the top hose, so i'm pretty sure it must have been the bottom one. but i just had that one changed a few months ago. so i don't know. i just had the radiator replaced a few months ago. i was driving a while back and the car started getting hot. when i checked, the coolant was low, so i put more in it. it's doing exactly what it was doing the last two times a hose broke. when i look on the internet, it says there is also a hose that goes to the waterpump, so i wonder if that's what it is. i hope that's what it is. it's at an age where all of the hoses are starting to corrode and wear out. the belts probably will, too. i can change the hoses, but i have no idea how to change a belt. i'd like to start learning how to do some of the stuff. we're watching "i love the 70s" of 1977. that is the year i was born. mittens keeps asking me, "remember that?" and i keep having to tell him no. 2008-01-06 9:10 p.m. i just feel so much sympathy for people who are mentally ill. like a lot of my students. they didn't do anything, they were just born that way. i think of one student in particular, and he really moves me. he's just so dangerous and sick. i don't think he enjoys being that way and i don't think he knows he needs to get better. 2008-01-04 9:08 p.m. oh man. poor britney spears. i'm really sad for her. 2008-01-04 8:05 p.m. man, lindsey lohand is such a ho! 2008-01-01 7:58 p.m. i haven't gone anywhere near the wart remover stuff. i also failed to hang up my coat when i got home. these aren't broken resolutions, they are hurdles to overcome. right. 2008-01-01 6:01 p.m. mittens is the very best. when i say something to him like, "put ed wood on our netflix, i'd like to watch it again," he does it right then. no waiting, just bam. it's all set up. he's willing to stop what he's doing just to put that on the list for me. thanks mittens. 2008-01-01 5:04 p.m. dang it. i'd really like to grow. i don't spend a whole lot of time thinking about how short i am, but when i do think about it, i don't like it. i don't like it that i'm shorter than everyone else. that bothers me. 2008-01-01 4:48 p.m. i've never stopped believing that i am going to grow a few more inches. just three. i'd like to just grow three more inches. that would make me just shy of 5'5". that's all i want. 2008-01-01 3:23 p.m. today is the day i start getting rid of this wart finally! and today is the day i start hanging up my coat when i get home. that's about all today is good for. i have to be back at work tomorrow. suxor. 2008-01-01 9:39 p.m. i haven't washed my hair for the last week. i've only bathed one time in the last eight days. uh, also, i haven't shaved since christmas day. i've been brushing my teeth at least. also, i've been to the gym five out of the last seven days. 2007-12-31 9:32 p.m. mittens has never, ever, in the time we've been together to make me think he might be even a little bit gay. until just now when he showed how a gymnist does his arms when he lands. that was just a tiny bit gay on my boyfriend. 2007-12-31 4:21 p.m. i'm going to wax my upper lip now. that would be a good way to start the new year. 2007-12-31 10:40 p.m. i haven't done anything today. that was my plan. i got up at about 10. went to the bagel world and got some bagels and coffees. cooked some eggs to eat with our bagels then came upstairs and did nothing from about 11:30 until 7:30 when mittens called me down for dinner. i did the dishes. now i am doing nothing again. it's awesome. it must be so nice to be a cat and do nothing. one christmas, mittens' grandmother and her friend were talking about friends of theirs who had died. they were so matter-of-fact about it. it was so strange to me to hear them talk about it because they were okay with it. that's so strange to me. 2007-12-30 6:55 p.m. seriously, if mittens tells me one more time that he's not going to eat something until he sees it, i'm going to stop cooking all together. i'm making pizza tonight and just now there was this: me: do you want sausage on your pizza? mittens: i don't know i'll have to see it. me: you want to see if there are fennel seeds in the sausage? mittens: yes. me: it's the same sausage we eat all the time. why do you need to check it? mittens: oh, it's the stuff we eat for breakfast? me: yeah. mittens: oh, then yeah, i'll have it on my pizza. this guy doesn't stop with being picky with his food. i love the guy to death, but he's a picky fucking eater. 2007-12-29 10:34 a.m. the old roommate who had this room where i'm sitting used to leave the air conditioner in the window all year long. birds used to build nests on the air conditioner. just now, a bird flew into the window and tried to land. i think it was a bird looking for its home. we've destroyed it. raoul heard it fluttering around up there. he meowed and i opened the blind for him. he was so happy, but soon, the bird was gone. such is life raoul. such is life. 2007-12-28 8:46 p.m. i got a big book about the aztecs, a tuxedo cat calendar and a wireless mouse. mittens got a new coat, a new hat and some bottles of wine. i took my car to the shop today to replace the used distributer i had put in it last month with a new one. that is why i don't like to gamble. that's about all. 2007-12-26 8:33 p.m. you know how people say 30 is the new 20. i don't like that. i feel like my age issues are minimized by that. i feel like it's saying, "30 isn't that bad. your life is just beginning." my life isn't just beginning. and i'm having all of these things happen that never happened before. my eyes are getting bad. and i can't remember things like i used to. i used to never forget any information, but now i forget things all of the time. i just cringe every time i think about it. 2007-12-22 4:36 a.m. i'm really happy they are making these self extinguishing cigarettes these days. and that the government is making laws about mattresses having to be fire retardant. when i was about six or seven, my grandmother died because she fell asleep while smoking a cigarette in bed. the whole house burned down and my grandfather wasn't able to get her out in time. my mom, of course being the insensitive nut that she is, wouldn't let me go to the funeral. all of the cousins got to go, but i had to sit my aunt dee's house. i remember my cousins who were about the same age being all dressed up while i wore my jeans and tshirt. i remember playing outside with them and trying to make a hole in the dirt. i think they got yelled at for being out there in their nice clothes. i think i got yelled at to for making a whole in the ground. 2007-12-21 4:33 a.m. i am up at 4:33 this morning because i can't sleep. this sucks. i've been having trouble sleeping for about the last week and a half. 2007-12-21 8:26 p.m. enough with the snow already. i mean really, we've gotten close to three feet over the last week, including about 6 inches today. plus, a plow went down our street and blocked our driveway. have i ever written about how much i just adore tony danza. i think he is just such a nice guy. like, you can just tell he doesn't have a mean bone in his body. i don't think he's hawt or anything (that is still reserved for benicio del toro), i just like him. 2007-12-20 8:59 p.m. the book "the unbearable lightness of being" might be taking the place of "huckleberry finn" as my favorite book. the song "fell in love with a girl" might be taking the place of "wonderwall" as my favorite song. no, never. 2007-12-19 7:53 p.m. have you heard the new britney spear song? it's pretty good. she looks good in the video. i say good for her for having something right. good for her. 2007-12-18 8:18 p.m. more snow. wednesday evening and night. please let us have thursday off. 2007-12-17 8:23 p.m. mittens just called me out of the shower to watch "monster-in-law." i can't believe someone thought this movie was a good idea. that someone thought this movie would be a good idea makes me nervous and worry for the future of the human race. 2007-12-16 8:18 p.m. i remembered in the shower just now that my resolution from last year was to be persistent enough to get rid of this wart. this year, it's for real. 2007-12-16 7:57 a.m. my new years resolution for this year is to finally get rid of this wart. i'm going to be persistent enough about it and keep the stuff on it all of the time until it's really gone, gone, gone. that is my plan. will you support me? 2007-12-16 7:55 a.m. more snow. did you know i hate the snow? but i also love it because it means more days off work. how i love days off work. i need to go wax my upper lip now. 2007-12-16 7:48 p.m. even though mittens tried to hate on my italien recipe, he still loves me. you know how i know? because he cleared off the table before we ate tonight. he knows that i'm not happy sitting at a dinner table unless it is completely clear. and tonight he cleared it for me while i cooked the fajitas. aren't i lucky? 2007-12-15 5:05 p.m. when i first went to mittens' auntie phyllis' house, we had these delicious roles of meat that had braised in a red sauce and had eggs in them. i didn't know what they were except that they were delicious. finally, i was able to get mittens to get me the recipe. i call them "those meat roles," but i guess they are really called "braciole." according to the internet, they are a tradition of southern italian cooking. so i made them today. here are the pictures: first, i put out all of the ingredients: sandwich steak, boiled eggs, salami, breadcrumbs, cheese and garlic powder. then, you just layer them all on: 1. steak 2. salami 3. boiled egg slices 4. cheese i used asiago and romano. 5. bread crumbs 6. garlic powder you have to pin them closed. i got a splinter. after that, you fry them. last, you cook them in sauce. i'm just going to put them in the sauce for a few days. then, when i'm ready to eat, i'll pull them out of the fridge and heat them up. also, mittens is a hater and had me make his WITHOUT salami. hater. 2007-12-15 8:48 a.m. i ordered some adult clothes. boooo. okay, so those shoes aren't all grown up, but i can't help it. they are so cute and i've been waiting for them to be on clearance at a super cheap price for a long time. they were only $8. that's as cheap as they'll go. and that belt was only $4. so anyway, i got $290 worth of clothes for $85 plus $16 for shipping. why? because i'm awesome. duh. 2007-12-14 8:18 a.m. i'm shopping on line. i'm finding all of these really great clothes that i love. and then i realize that i'm too old to be wearing them. a few weeks ago at work i had on my regular clothes. a guy told me i looked like i was in high school. that upset me because i know he meant i should be dressing more maturely. i'm upset. 2007-12-14 9:18 p.m. fuck this city! 2007-12-13 7:34 p.m. man, i'm not going to lie, brad pitt is a gorgeous man. 22007-12-09 7:23 p.m. somebody drove across our front lawn last night. it had to have happened before 3:30a when we got home. i'm glad they didn't crash into our house, but i really love when we have excitement like that in our lives. i wish we'd been home. 2007-12-09 1:42 p.m. i've always hated fergie. but you know who i really hate? katherine heigl. that woman is famous for no real reason. and her mouth is just, yuck! we went out last night. it was good but toooo cold. it was nice to see aarne and breaux. they both make me laugh! they both need to stop invading my personal space, whether intentional or not. 2007-11-12 9:08 p.m. so i'm dealing with the first divorce of a friend. i mean, i've known people who've gotten divorced, but never a friend. this is so strange to me. 2007-12-04 9:00 p.m. i really think you can tell stevie nicks is a bitch just by looking at her. 2007-12-04 7:50 p.m. even though i've had to swallow my pride and finally enjoying the who, i will never, ever, ever ever ever, not for my life ever like queen. sorry. 2007-12-03 7:44 p.m. fuck you you fucking cunt bitch piece of shit copy machine lady. it is not my job to fix the copy machine. it is your job. i am sorry i don't have time to stop and talk to you every time the copy machine jams. i do not have time to listen to a full dissertation on the correct weight of paper to buy. i bought the fucking paper you told me to buy. i'm not buying different paper. fuck you lady. 2007-12-03 8:48 p.m. i wonder if my sister has told her kids they have an aunt. i wonder what kinds of horrible things she will tell them about about me. i wonder what they will think when they finally meet me. i feel really bad for them having her as a mother. she's one of those people who would tell her kids that she's the only one on earth who loves them. she's a horrible, horrible person. 2007-12-02 8:42 p.m. it's snowing enough to annoy me. but not enough for school to be cancelled tomorrow. boooo. 2007-12-02 9:50 a.m. oscar threw up in the bed at about 3:00 this morning. i had to get up and clean it. gross. 2007-12-02 9:14 p.m. i don't care if my mom ends up spending the rest of her life with this other woman, kathy. she'll never be a parent to me. 2007-12-01 5:51 p.m. can i brag for just a minute? i went for my second meeting at the gym. i lost only a pound and a half, which is not a big deal since i'm not focusing on loosing pounds. but listen to this: i've been trying to get my body fat percentage into the healthy range. i was at about 35% last month when i had my first meeting. the health range is below 33%. guess where i was when we tested it today. 32.9%! i did it! yeah. go me. this is especially good since i've had two pieces of cake with my dinner every night since tuesday. this is the first time i've been in the healthy range for at least 15 years. also good is that i'm getting closer to my second goal. i'm trying to get into a size 12. i'm still in a 14, but a 14 is getting a little big on me. my long term goal is a size 10. but right now, i'm really focusing on a size 12. i think i'm only about a month away and if i don't let the holidays get to me, hopefully by the end of january i will be comfortable in a size 12. by the end of the school year, my goal is to be in a size 10. that means i'll be able to shop at stores like the forever 21 and the h&m. and when i go to the d.e.b. i won't have to shop in the plus sizes any more. and target. meh, fuck target. they hate fat people. my shoulders are probably still to broad to fit in any of their tops anyway. 2007-12-01 8:36 p.m. this sucks!!! 2007-11-29 7:42 p.m. i'm handling today rather well. mittens wrote "happy birthday jodie" on a cake for me and cooked me liver and onions for dinner. yum. he bought me a book that i can't wait to read and some stickers for work. he bought me a card that turned out to be the same card i bought for him. it was good. but still...30? uhg. 2007-11-27 7:28 p.m. can someone please explain to my why there might be a rule that says you cannot buy yourself a birthday cake? 2007-11-26 9:00 p.m. i was kind of starting too feel birthday-y. i was at the store and i bought a cake for $2.50. i got home and said to mittens, "i bought a birthday cake. he said, "i was going to make you one on thursday." i said, "really, my birthday is on tuesday." he said, "no it's not, really?" i told him yes but he didn't believe me. i said, "the 27th." he still didn't believe me. he tried to cover and say he knew the date and was going to make it whenever that date was but that he thought it was thursday. i'm feeling even less birthday-y than before. i feel like shit in general. 2007-11-24 5:45 p.m. for years now i've been trying to find a good knee high boot. i haven't been able to find one i like though. it's like the search for the holy grail or something. either they make my feet look even bigger or they are too tight in the leg or whatever. i'm ready to give up but i have a dress i'd like to have them for. 2007-11-23 10:40 p.m. i got the very best news while i was in oklahoma city. i asked my mom if devil sister is sending her kids to private school since devil sister always swore she would never, ever send her kids to public school. my mom told me that devil nephew is going to public school. when i asked her if devil sister had changed her mind, my mom mumbled that devil nephew hadn't gotten into any of the private schools devil sister applied for. how happy it makes me that devil sister wants to be hoity-toity but she can't! 2007-11-22 9:31 p.m. this fucking wart is a cocksucker!!!!! 2007-11-21 8:09 p.m. so my car ended up costing $510. suxor. 2007-11-20 6:19 p.m. raoul ran outside. he stopped at the end of the cemented area and i picked him up. i put him down when we got inside and i chided him, saying, "see, it's too cold for a cat to good outside." he ran around and hobbled on his right foot. mittens said he was worried about it. we looked and it was wet. i picked up him and carried him around like a child. i said to mittens, "get a washcloth and put some warm water on it. we can clean it off." raoul was calm in my arms while mittens while mittens wiped it clean. he cleaned it and wiped it mostly dry. we put raoul down and he quickly into the living room. he came upstairs and is now taking a cat rest. i hope he feels secure and like we love him and that we will take care of him. i really think it was a bonding experience for raoul and mittens. 2007-11-18 4:46 p.m. thanksgiving is my favorite holiday. 2007-11-18 6:38 p.m. i got season two of spaceghost coast to coast in the mail today!!! 2007-11-17 6:27 p.m. how amazing these pickled eggs are!!! 2007-11-17 5:59 p.m. my car is in the shop again. mittens tells me i should buy a new one. i can't really afford to buy a new one. booo on cars breaking down. i just hope i can afford to fix it. 2007-11-17 8:49 p.m. my students tell me all the time that i am a great teacher. they say, "man, ms. mittens, i never got this stuff in school, but when explain it, i get it." it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy. one time i said to them, "it's because i'm an awesome teacher," and they agreed. 2007-11-12 8:45 p.m. i just find the song "candy shop" so romantic. is that wrong? 2007-11-12 8:08 p.m. i've started taking my showers at night since i have to get up so early in the morning. it's not really so bad i guess. i haven't really felt dirty or gross or anything when i get home the following day. plus, i don't feel bad for mittens having to get in bed with me after i've been at the gym for an hour. lucky him! two: i didn't eat my salad upstairs because i was busy boiling eggs for pickled eggs, a favorite of mine. i called my mom to find out what goes in them--beets, vinegar and sugar. how delicious they will be in a week. a week! how can i wait for a week for a pickled egg? meh, i'll live. i just looked up recipes for pickled eggs, just to see. they all seem so difficult, like, boiling the vinegar and sugar. how can you boil sugar and vinegar? don't you have to have water to boil something? i ordered the nikki sixx biography. i can't wait to read it. i also ordered season two of spaceghost coast to coast. i can't wait to tell dennis, a student who also loves it, all about it. i went to target and spent only $4 on things i didn't intend to buy. okay, actually, i didn't intend on buying snow boots, but i knew i would need them soon. instead, i intended on buying new running shoes. but i tried on the pair i liked and they were just no good. i just think 50 cent is so cute with his curious, bewildered expression. 2007-11-12 6:25 p.m. i asked, about 5 years ago if i'd still be writing in this silly thing when i become dr. jodie. i am currently jodie, m.ed. i will be starting to become dr. jodie in 3-5 years. i will probably still be writing in this. i'd like to thank janet for getting me hooked on the general silliness that is this blog. if it were not for e-stalking you in college, i would not be writing in this thing so regularly. and even though your boyfriend put his finger in a conveniently located whole in your pants while you two were making out on the bed in front of my friend's mom in the dorm room you were sharing, i'm still grateful to you for giving me someone to e-stalk. and for getting me hooked on this stupid thing. 2007-11-12 3:12 p.m. ha ha! i'm going to eat a salad upstairs and mittens can't stop me! the phone battery is dead so he can't even call to yell at me. this is awesome! 2007-11-12 11:23 a.m. i can't lie, i love the new britny spear record. 2007-11-12 10:48 a.m. wow. my right ear is waaaay bigger than my left ear. 2007-11-12 9:24 p.m. i was wrong about being less in love with seth rogan. i am like, at potential stalker level with him. 2007-11-11 9:05 p.m. so all these years i thought i got most of my general insanity from my dad. after watching my mother through her break-up with tammy, i feel certain it all comes from her. all of it. every last bit. 2007-11-11 11:05 p.m. i'm a little bit less in love with seth rogan after seeing knocked up. 2007-11-10 8:07 p.m. smoke grass. eat cookies. 2007-11-10 3:49 p.m. i stay depressed. i don't really want to feel better. 2007-11-10 3:17 p.m. future students at my job: DAILY INCIDENTS FOR FRIDAY, NOVEMBER 9, 2007 THROWING STUFF FROM THE BUS NOT SMART At about 3:00pm, on Thursday, November 8, 2007, an object thrown out the window of a passing school bus struck an officer performing a paid detail in the area of 1800 Dorchester Avenue. The object, a wooden pencil, struck the officer in the face. After the object was thrown, the school bus came to a stop. When the officer approached the bus, the driver opened the door and said, �They�ve been throwing things out the whole ride.� The officer observed four black males sitting inside the bus. The driver then pointed to one of the four individuals and stated, �He just threw something.� As the officer approached the suspect, the suspect ran to the back of the bus. While the officer made his way towards the suspect, the other three individuals began yelling and swearing at the officer. One of the individuals even stepped in front of the officer so as to block him from apprehending the suspect. Officers arrested a 12 year-old from Dorchester and charged him with Assault on a Police Officer and Resisting Arrest. Officers also arrested a 13 year-old from Dorchester and charged him with Disorderly Conduct and Resisting Arrest. 2007-11-10 11:54 a.m. i'm having some sort of weird breakout. i've got these pimple things all over my stomach and arms, but i don't think they are pimples. i changed soap when i had a reaction to a gold ring i was wearing as i'd heard the soap i was using can increase the likelihood of a rash. i also switched to a new scrubbery thing made of pvc. the rash started before i switched soaps, so i'm going to change both the soap and the scrubbery thing. if those don't work by tuesday, i'm going to call the doctor and see if i can get in. i've wanted to have a referral to a dermatologist for some time about this red thing on my nose. they keep telling me it's nothing, but i don't like the way it looks. i want to get rid of it if i can. man, i type fast. 2007-11-10 10:58 a.m. speaking of norman mailer dying. did you know i love to read the most foul books? i don't mean romance novels. i mean books by bukowski and selby and burroughs and soon books by henry miller and norman mailer. and i think i'm from a different time. i should have been born in the early 30s. there's nothing like all those things now. there's nothing foul anymore. anyway, mittens tells me not to read those things anymore. he's says i'm "not 22." when i asked him what that meant he said people read those books when they are 22. which is true, i did. i read naked lunch at 19 and progressed from there until i was about 24. i somehow stopped reading when i got to art school. now that i'm commuting to work on the t, i'm back to reading. so far, i've read huckleberry finn, lord of the flies and the room. before that, i read requiem for a dream and the demon. next i'm going to read last exit to brooklyn. then, i'll reread aztec though and culture and another book i bought about the aztecs. then, a book for beat short stories i bought. i shouldn't have been embarrassed to read the room on the crowded commuter rail. 2007-11-10 7:16 p.m. so i've decided to let myself spend $100 each month on clothes. because i can. i'm pretty good at finding good deals. today i bought $318 worth of clothes for $115 including shipping. because i am awesome. 2007-11-09 8:26 p.m. what kind of store closes the salad bar at 8? really, i mean, who does that? the shop-n-stop in reading. because people in reading are generally assholes. 2007-11-07 9:19 p.m. FUCK SHOP-N-STOP!!! 2007-11-06 2:58 p.m. i went to the gym this morning, i've cleaned the bathroom and i'm working on the laundry. i'm nearly done with everything, so i'm going to smoke grass and eat one of these ridiculously rich and sweet cupcakes mittens' brother got him for his birthday. i got him an oven thermometer and vidalia chop wizard. 2007-11-04 2:53 p.m. thank god for the extra hour this weekend. it gave me time to clean our bathroom. 2007-11-04 2:27 p.m. so like, i don't know, three or four years ago, i started going to curves. when i was measured for my body fat, i was at like, 43%. that was waaaay higher than it should be. i was measured this week at the new gym. i was at about 33%. guess what, at 30% i'm in the "normal" range according to their scale. right now i'm in the over weight range, but not in the obese range. this is awesome! i wonder if i could make it into the normal range by my birthday. probably not, but it would still be awesome if i could get a little closer. even down to 31% which is in the "acceptable" on most other scales. i'm also up to running nearly a mile and a half. 2007-11-04 11:37 a.m. pay day friday: i can't wait. do they do quick shipping? 2007-11-04 8:42 p.m. does dr. dre every stop complaining? 2007-11-01 7:51 p.m. starting at about 11:30 today, i entered a foul mood. i'm tired because i stayed up too late last night watching who's the boss. i can't get enough of that show. what a bizarre concept: a woman hires a mail live in housekeeper and they happen to make a great family. really thinking about it is somehow very taboo to me. so, anyway, i entered a foul mood. i had to sit through professional development. then, i had to drive back to boston and drop off some books. then, i had to come home and finish an assessment for a kid who is aging out at the end of next week (so why must i invest four hours of time into this? he's getting an abbreviated assessment.) and i'm hungry, but there's nothing to eat in this house. mittens came home and left after about two minutes. when he left, he apologized for not being home. i said it was fine, why would i be upset? he always practices on thursdays. he called me a few minutes after he left and said, "happy anniversary!" i said, "oh, it is today." can you believe it's been five years? after he called, i felt better. 2007-11-01 7:13 p.m. i've got to get mittens a birthday present. i don't know what to get him. meh. whatever. 2007-11-01 8:16 p.m. oh god. 30. and wrinkles. 2007-10-31 8:44 p.m. did someone call ion tv for me to complain that who's the boss was replaced by perfect strangers? because they started showing perfect strangers at nine o'clock, which is when who's the boss used to show. then who's the boss came back on at nine. did someone call them for me? 2007-10-30 8:51 p.m. i'm homesick for oklahoma. 2007-10-29 8:16 p.m. i discovered the stair machine at the gym. well, okay, i didn't discover it, i've been so intimidated by it that i only tried it saturday. i thought it would kill me after less than three minutes so i'd always put it immediately out of my mind. it's not bad though. i was able to do 15 minutes saturday at 20 minutes today. i'm awesome. i also ran 1.25 miles (17 minutes). and i biked another eight in about 25 minuates. so i'm doing really good at the gym. i actually enjoy it. but after saturday, my butt was killing me from that stair machine. it's already starting to hurt tonight. i'd like some advil, please. 2007-10-29 7:41 p.m. whenever i smile, i get all of these lines on my face. and they don't go right away when i stop smiling. god. i feel tense and ill and unrelaxed. 2007-10-28 6:35 p.m. i'm taking a new t train to work starting this week. you see, i've been taking the haverhill line because the reading station is about a mile and a half from here. the train leaves at 6:05 and i get to work at about 7:40. but they've changed the schedule. now, the train won't leave until 6:20 and i'll get to work at 8:00. then, when i was driving to target yesterday, i saw signs for the anderson/woburn train. i'd always thought the woburn station was somewhere in downtown woburn, not up here by reading. so i decided i'd check out the schedule for that stop, which is on the lowell line. it turns out there's a train that leaves there at 6:38 and would also put me at work at about 8:00. if i take that train, i'll be able to sleep for about 20 more minutes in the morning. the best part is that the train ride from north station back to woburn is only about 20 minutes. that means i can take the 5:30 lowell line train in the afternoon instead of the 5:15 haverill line train and still get home at the same time AND i won't have to run through north station to get there. this is great. i've been dying to sleep later, and now i will. it's nice that i'll have a shorter ride in the morning. about 15 minutes of that trip is waiting for a bus to take me from jackson square station to work. i could take another bus and not have to wait so long, but it's a longer walk to get to the school, so it always evens out. and it's starting to get cold here. i don't want to have to be out in it even longer. 2007-10-28 10:26 p.m. for the past three weeks, every time i've gone to the nail place, women have been asking, "do you have lincoln park after dark?" this week i got it. it's a good color. i told the girl she'll have to order more. 2007-10-27 9:37 p.m. you know why the rockies are going to lose this world series? because they wear those hideous vest uniforms. i hate teams that have those vests. 2007-10-27 8:22 p.m. i was just watching on the world series the girl singing the national anthem. there was a giant us flag on the field and firecrackers. i though of how funny it would have been if the flag caught on fire. 2007-10-27 8:59 p.m. i am up to jogging one mile. sweet! i'm so sleepy, but i'm watching america's next top model. and god, i can't miss that. work's good. mittens and i have our five year anniversary next week. can you believe it? we are young (well, i am, he's old) and in love. he's my teammate in life. 2007-10-24 12:03 p.m. oh god. 30. 2007-10-21 9:48 p.m. i normally hate, HATE christmas movie. but this new one, "fred claus" looks really funny. 2007-10-19 8:23 p.m. i totally had a kid convinced that leprechauns are real. until i said to him, "haven't you ever seen me in my green dress?" it was awesome! why did i have to say anything? enough baseball already. i've been watching "who's the boss?" while falling asleep. i really like tony danza. he just such a nice guy. i don't think he's probably ever said anything horrible about anyone. 2007-10-18 8:41 p.m. i'm all stuffed up! 2007-10-17 9:16 p.m. so tammy and her new woman, alicia, have three kids right now. two of the kids are somehow related to alicia and she has dss/dhs custody of them. the third is tammy's niece, trinity. trinity is nine and was a pretty good idea of what's going on with her fucked up family. the best part of the weekend was this: trinity: do you know where angelica is? (angelica is our 18 year old cousin) me: where? trinity: probably dancing on a pole somewhere. me: what? tammy: yeah, angelica's a pole dancer. 2007-10-16 9:12 p.m. oops. 2007-10-16 8:30 p.m. 1. okc was awesome. that whole city is awesome. 2. vomiting all over mock's apartment was not awesome. i hadn't really had much to drink, either. 3. david still. 4. my mom is a pain in the ass. 5. new step sisters and brother! 6. del rancho. 7. dinner with cindy. 8. driving all around nw okc. 2007-10-15 11:34 a.m. what are some jay z songs i need on the itune for my vacation? 2007-10-12 11:06 a.m. i'm leaving in one hour!!!!! 2007-10-12 9:24 p.m. so i'm supposed to hang out with david tomorrow night. i think he's not going to show. if he doesn't show, i'm done with him. he's the closest friend i've ever had, but he treats people like shit. and i don't let that kind of thing happen to me. he's so important to me, but i'm tired of it and i'm not going to invest any more into this friendship if he isn't. and i'm so sad about it. 2007-10-11 8:01 p.m. so now that the hair is hurting a little less, i'm starting to dig it more. i've put sea breeze on it which has indeed helped with the pain. i apologized to mittens about the smell of the sea breeze, then he said he likes that smell. so it's okay. i just hope other people aren't grossed out by it. ms. coker said i should be fine within a couple more days, once the braids are "stale." already they feel way better than the did. this is a hair style i would love to keep, but i don't know that i can go through that pain every few months, you know. OKC!!! 2007-10-09 8:10 p.m. i love jay-z. 2007-10-08 7:42 p.m. we went to the fair today. i got to see all kinds of animals and vegetables. i love the animals and vegetables contests. i also got some fresh honey. i love honey! we walked and walked. and outside of the flower contest, we stopped to say hello to mittens' friend. he tried to walk past us but mittens made sure he saw us, thinking he just didn't recognize us. he introduced the girl on his arm as his "friend." i thought was odd, but didn't say anything. afterwards, mittens told me the girl he was with was not his girlfriend. uh-oh. 2007-10-08 9:49 p.m. this new show, "america's next smart model" is pretty good. not as obnoxious as most of the other vh1 shows. i ended up watching the last few episodes of "rock of love." remember those kids when you were growing up who were stuck in the 80s? but not in a good way, more like some single party mom who wears ripped jeans. there was a woman on there like that. and with big hair, too. she was just very 80s bar bitch. 2007-10-07 previous - next diaryland